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playboynick66: hey sexy
ColorTheCoast14: loser
playboynick66: i luv u
ColorTheCoast14: go fuck yourself up the ass if your dick can reach it
playboynick66: no its too small
playboynick66: will u give me head
playboynick66: ?
playboynick66: 4 40 dollars
ColorTheCoast14: no youre a loser
playboynick66: y not
playboynick66: 200
ColorTheCoast14: no youre a loser with a small dick
playboynick66: but i luv ur ass and i want to play with it
ColorTheCoast14: go suck your brothers dick loser
playboynick66: his ios too big 4 me
playboynick66: can just do it 4 me?
playboynick66: pleese :-D
ColorTheCoast14: you dont understand how much of a gay fag you are
playboynick66: no im a player
playboynick66: and i luv the way u look at me
ColorTheCoast14: pshh sure
playboynick66: ;-)
ColorTheCoast14: i dont look at you...it makes me throw up
playboynick66: no u luv me very much and u wqant to suck my dick so y dont u
ColorTheCoast14: youre a loser i would never go anywhere near your dick or you for that matter
playboynick66: but u love me devyn
ColorTheCoast14: actually i wouldnt mind if you died
playboynick66: yes u wuld u wuld go to my funeral and have sex with me in the coffin
playboynick66: gtg sexy
faggot
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ahh...woke up too early today...at like 9
i fell asleep at 9 last night!
thats like so early for me
ahh im so happy...my mom left me home alone today
mainly because
a.)she knows i hate her
b.)i finally got her to believe i didnt smoke
c.)she had to go to work and hates bringing me there
d.)my grandparents didnt want to watch me because i made them hate me! YAY!
but yeah so my thermostat was really broken so i showed her and she was like "why didnt you open a window in your room if it was 80 degrees in your room?" and i was like "you know ive always been afraid of opening windows in my room because of bugs" and she bought it!
ahhh so happy so so so so so so so happy.......
but yeah i told joey to call last night and i dont think he did :( but then again i might have been asleep....most likely not...but thats cool too
but yeah im going to go back to sleep i think...or stay up...depending on if sarah puzzo gets online...because i wanna talk to my lesbian! I'm just so tired
Won't you sing me to sleep
Fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride
With you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life
Late night drives
All alone in my car
I can't help but start
Singing lines
From all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singing, life just ain't fair
But sometimes I still just can't
Believe you're gone
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Then we will make it through
One more year, down here
Feel your fire, when it's cold in my heart
And things sorta start reminding me
Of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that I had gone up with you too
You won't be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
I hope that all is well in Heaven
Cause it's all shot to hell down here
I hope that I find you in Heaven
Cause I'm so lost without you down here
You won't be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
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::AND THE LAST::
Word you said: umm....i have no fucking clue?
School you went to: TBS
Friend you made: uhh probably my cousin's friends in west hartford
Person you loved: now? umm....well i used to love jarod...last yearish...
Person you fell in love with: wait you so already asked that
Person you kissed: brandon
Person you dated: wow i dont even remember
Person you uh... did stuff with: wow...rather not say as he has a girlfriend
Illegal drug you took: umm illegal? like i did weed this week...but we also sniffed stuff that wasnt illegal, but the way we used it was!
::THIS OR THAT?::
This/That: that
White/Black: uhh black?
Shaken/Stirred: shaken
Boxers/Briefs: boxers
Smooth/Chunky: smooth
Looks/Intelligence: well i hate intelligence
MTV/VH1: MTV
Nickelodeon/Cartoon Network: they both suck ass
McDonalds/Burger King: both suck...but Burger King?
Britney/Christina: britney
Jessica/Mandy: mandy
Avril/Ashlee: ashlee
Justin/Nick: nick?
N*SYNC/BSB: BSB!
Pop/Rock: Rock (and old pop haha)
Rap/Punk: punk
Good Charlotte/Simple Plan: umm simple plan is better than the new good charlotte stuff...
Grease/Rocky Horror Picture Show: Grease
Marilyn Monroe/Gwen Stefani: umm Marilyn Monroe?
Pat Benetar/Deborah Harry: who the hell is that?
Big Bird/Cookie Monster: COOKIE monster! teehee
Red/Blue: red
Hilary/Lindsay: umm linsday? they both are kind of really weird...but whatever
Queer Eye/Straight Plan: QUEER EYE! haha
Mad TV/SNL: SNL
'Beavis and Butthead/South Park: South Park
Daria/My So-called Life: My So-Called Life( my fave show used to be daria though haha)
Smurfs/Snorks: Smurfs
Care Bears/Strawberry Shortcake: Care Bears!
ahh life is pretty damn good right now...
besides the fact my mom thinks she knows that i smoke...but she doesnt!
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TOO HAPPY FOR WORDS!
AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SARAH ISNT MAD AT ME ANYMORE
I LOVE HER
I LOVE SARAH PUZZO!!!
YAY!
and JOEY ISNT MAD AT ME ANYMORE
I LOVE JOEY!
AHH!
SOSOSOSOSOSO HAPPY!
Okay..Im going to go jump up and down in circles
or rectangles....teehee SO HAPPY!
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[24 Feb 2005|07:22am] |
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ahh last nite was crazy
amberini and shanona came over because my mom wanted to "pay back" shannona's parents for letting me stay over there like all of vaca
so we found some benadryl asprin cough syrup and took it
and then me and amberini got cigarettes from my mom's purse
so shannona opened the bathroom window for us so we could smoke
but of course we left the window open and my brother used to smoke from that bathroom with that window open so of course my mom comes into my room in the morning when she was waking us up and she's like "Devyn, why is the window in the bathroom open?" and i said because the thermostat broke(it did) and then she does, "Why is there air freshener in there" and i was like "How am i supposed to know?" I'll make up a good excuse just incase she asks me later, because she was like I don't know what to believe...and she asked Shannona "the honest one" haha and Shannon was like "No"about is there a reason she should be aware of that the window is open
i have to go to my psychologist today and so my mom wont let me ask my grandparents back off at shannonas, so im gonna be dropped back over there around 6 or 7
yeah we spent like all night on the phone with joey
which is good...very good
im really happy hes not mad at me anymore
because i reallly like him
oh and if these entries upset you or something...dont read them
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[23 Feb 2005|12:32pm] |
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ikk
i really dont know what is going on right now
sarah wants to kill me and i dont blame her
im sorry like we really didnt plan on doing anything with gus
but he brought weed and we got high and shit happened
and im sorry i totally regret anything happening
really i do
and this doesnt change the fact that i still love you and still consider you my best friend...none of this would have happened if we werent high...you should know that
and this also doesnt change the fact that i still majorly like joey...not gus.
yeah so im sorry to everyone...especially sarah
you may not realize it now because i know i majorly fucked up but i love you really i do and youre my best friend and youve always been there for me and i dont know what im going to do without you
this just sucks
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im still at shannons right now with amber
and jennie slept over last nite too
shannon had a party for amber's b-day so it was fun
yeah sarahp sarahg andyg gus alexm and i think thats it were there
it was kind of weird though because almost everyone had a boyfriend there except me and jennie and shannon
but yeah i spent most of the time with sarahg and amber
and shannons mom walking in on me and sarahg having lesbo sex
haha good times...
and yeah im gonna be here until about 830ish because my mom is visiting my brother tonight...but i might end up sleeping over again...i have no clue
we went shopping today and bought thongs...nothing better to do with our money haha
and last nite me amber and jennie went for a walk when shannon was sleeping at about 1ish and so shannons brother was like whatever go and we were like dont lock us out and so we come back like a half hour freezing cold because it was snowing and he locked us out...thank god we didnt go to the commons like we were going to because her brother would have fallen asleep and left us out...and so we were knocking on the door for like fifteen minutes and then her brother finally lets us in after yelling at us through the door and making jennie cry lol
and then we had a cheerio eating contest
and i ate ONE WHOLE BOWL
and jennie ate three
and amber ate FIVE
all while shannon was sleeping...
haha good times last night
<3devynnn
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If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.
I hope you find out what you want.
And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again.
I already know what I am.
And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am.
I'll grow old and start acting my age.
I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone.
And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone.
Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state.
You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room,
when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.
So call it quits or get a grip.
Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed.
Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget...
You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold.
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones.
Spring keeps you ever close.
You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin.
Standing trial for your sins.
Holding onto yourself the best you can.
You are the smell before rain.
You are the blood in my veins.
Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
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| You're Giving Up On Me |
[18 Feb 2005|01:35pm] |
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uhh today's suspension was...needless to say boring as hell
and everyone's like LUCKY! you get an extra two days of vacation
but i wanted to be at school for once
i missed everyone so much
and i am definitely not lucky seeing as i have no clue what could happen to me now with the police and shit but whatever
im excited for this weekend
today i had to go to this hospital place because my mom made me stay with my grandparents because she didnt trust me home alone anymore and my grandfather had to go to the dentist at the hospital and i felt like i was breathing in other peoples air
and i realized i am STILL afraid of escalators
(and the dark... im such a dork)
and then i realized im giving up on myself...because everyone has already given up on me
people have already judged me without giving me a chance
and the people i thought were my friends were just faking it...i know everyone secretly hates me...except sarah who my mom doesnt even let me talk to...and im sorry if this upsets anyone but i honestly think everyone hates me
so say that you havent given up on me...but itll be too late
I used to make the light shine for you,
The sun has left my sky.
Velvet walls surround my sorrows,
I've sacrificed my pride.
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.
I've laid myself to sleep tonight
I know you've played out everything in your mind.
And now you throw it all away,
A shattered memory that you would stay.
Through thick and thin with me,
You're giving up on me.
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me
Giving up on me,
You're giving up on me.
I lied myself to sleep tonight
I know, you've played out every line in your mind
And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me.
And when you feel the pain,
I'm wishing I could stay.
How can I say I love you back,
You never made me happy.
You've laid yourself to sleep!
I never said this wouldn't hurt.
You gave up everything!
I never said I'd give it back.
I know! (I know!)
You'll never change!
I won't be good enough for you.
I know! (I know!)
You'll make it through,
I'll never be around to see.
And now you throw it all away
A shattered memory that you would stay
Through thick and thin with me.
You're giving up on me i was never good enough for anyone...and i wished i had someone |
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I'm suspended.
but my mom doesnt really care...so its cool
my dad cares like even more than my mom hes being a bastard about it
but hey i get off for vaca early!
the police told the school and then they searched my locker and my backpack had the empty waterbottle in it and it smelled like alcohol so they told the police i had alcohol at school and so they called the police and the dude is coming over on tuesday and i have to go infront of some juvenile review board
but i still get to go over shannons this weekend and julia's and the uconn womens game and see sarah
uhh yeah i dont really feel like updating anymore...so if you wanna know anything...call me
<3devynnn
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[16 Feb 2005|10:59pm] |
think whatever you want about me
im a drunk
im a whore
i dont care
i like him, okay?
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[15 Feb 2005|11:33pm] |
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Fuck the police.
So Joey and me got drunk at some person's house and then we walked to the library and stuff and some person called the police on us...and joey ran! and so i was all alone and this Mr.Jadovich(lauren's dad who was off duty or something so i didnt know it was a cop at first)ARE YOU DRUNK and i was like no i had nothing to drink and he was like im not stupid i can smell it on you and so then this other cop comes and im like yeah im drunk and then i think amber or someone gave away i was with joey so then they were like whered you guys get the alcohol? and i was like i dont know and he's like where were you guys and i was like i dont know and hes like how old are you and i was like 13 and he was like arent you too young to be drinking?
like dont they have lives besides calling peoples parents being like we have your child here and she's fairly intoxicated.
ikk.... okay anyway apparentally amber told me i kept trying to take off my shirt haha
and i fell into a huge puddle with joey and it was like really cold and so amber let me wear her sweatshirt and then my legs almost like fell off they were so cold
but yeah my mom doesnt get home from work until like seven so shannons mommy and daddy came and picked me and amber and shannon up and i took a shower there and put on some random clothes shannon had haha and we rolled down the pants like a million times and they were still literally falling all the way off of me haha and then my mom called and i had shannons mom like beg her to let me stay at shannons because i was scared to death my stepdad would beat the shit out of me and so my mom was like no and came to pick me up
my mom got to the house and just started like crying when she looked at me and so then shannons mom told shannon to get me a pair of pants or something that actually fit haha and so shannon got me like guys shorts and i looked so guyish! heehee and then we went to her brothers room and we were talking to them and they were like go away and then my mom made me go so we drove back home and my stepdad was there and he was in the basement office thing and ignoring me so it was cool and shit
but then of course my mom was basically cool with me like if im good for like three days she said i can hang out with sarah puzzo again! and a lot of other stuff and then my stepdad comes upstairs when we were looking for the cat and started like flipping out on me so i ran to my room and my mom and her husband were screaming and fighting all night about me
and so then i took another shower and stuff and went to bed but my mom kept coming into my room and being like "we should talk" and i would be like later...and this happened for like four hours straight
but yeah i had so much fun with joey heehee I LOVE HIM! even though he totally ditched me...
okay im gonna go to do my homework...or just go to bed
<3devynnn
We're gonna die like this you know
Miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you
Really gotta hand it to you
Are you positive?
Absolutely sure?
Well just get dressed, don't do this
Just get dressed don't do this
You spent the night lit listening to Miles Davis
Said it makes you want to fall in love
Are you smart enough to keep your distance?
You can't decide, you can't decide...
We're gonna die like this you know
Miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you
Really gotta hand it to you
(Well just so you know)
Are you positive?
(When we get home)
Absolutely sure?
(We're through)
Just get dressed, don't do this
(We're through)
Just get dressed, don't do this
See it's a long way back south
And to where I belong
Well yeah you've been there once or twice
And you still don't like it
I say you just never gave it a chance
(Give me a chance, Give me a chance)
Besides did you ever stop to think
We could keep this up living like thieves
But you can't decide
(You can't decide)
No you can't decide
(Well you can't decide)
We're gonna die like this you know
(We're gonna die like this)
Miserable and old
(Miserable and old)
Really gotta hand it to you
(Miserable and old)
Really gotta hand it to you
(Well just so know)
Are you positive?
(When we get home)
Absolutely sure?
(We're through)
Just get dressed, don't do this
(We're through)
Just get dressed, don't do this
(Are you positive?)
Absolutely sure?
(Are you positive?)
We're gonna die like this you know
Miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you
Really gotta hand it to you
(Just so you know)
We're gonna die like this you know
(When we get home)
Miserable and old
(We're through)
Really gotta hand it to you
(We're through)
Really gotta hand it to you...
(Just so you know)
Are you positive?
(When we get home)
Absolutely sure?
(We're through)
Just get dressed, don't do this
(We're through)
Just get dressed, don't do this
(Just so you know)
We're gonna die like this you know
(When we get home)
We'll die like this
Miserable and old
(Well, just so you know)
We're gonna die like this
Miserable and old.
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last nite...sat.nite i went to lindsays bat mitzvah and during the service i was bored to hell so i was taking my shoes and making scuff marks on the chairs and then rubbing it off(used to do that when i was a kid and found it pretty amusing)
and so yeah i was like REALLY bored and then i saw ariel and we hung out for a little bit but then her dad had to pick her up for her other bat mitzvah or whatever so i was left all alone and forced to make friends with people haha but knowing me i started dancing with everyone and had a ton of fun and yeah i met this girl sarah adams who lives down the street my dads house is on(the one theyre fixing)
and so me sarah adams this other girl kristen and ven ven cock(ben van shak or something....we were calling him venvencock) and my cousin lindsay all went to the hartford theatre the crown theatre(GHETTO) haha to see the boogeyman and we had so much fun but the movie was kinda really stupid at the end but i was like freaking out as usual because it was really scary...
so yeah once we move back i can see her like all the time with my cousin
and i met a million bajillion cool people
and then my dads driving me home from sarahs
and so we pull into the driveway of my moms house and my dad calls gary(my stepdad) and tells him that im here just to make sure someone is home...because i lost my key.
so my dad drops me off and leaves i walk to the door with all my stuff
and i knock on the door for about five minutes in the freezing cold
and finally i hear my stepdads fat footsteps in the house
so he goes to the window and opens the blinds a little so he can see out of them
and he sees its me he screams wheres your key? a
nd all this shit and im like i dont know my mom said she was gonna talk to me about it tonite
and he was screaming so i started crying thinking i had nowhere to go and walked...not sure where i was gonna end up
and so then i turn around because i hear the door open and gary go devyn the doors unlocked so you cant tell anyone i locked you out
and then he throws all my stuff down the stairs of the deck thing to my front door and slams the front door shut
so i keep walking and crying and eventually turn back go in the house
call my dad and complain to him
tell my mom what happened on the phone(she was dropping my brother back off at rehab)
and take a shower
then tonite i got yelled at soo much from gary that fat bastard
and then my mom was pretending to be nice to me because of it and i told her to fuck off so i got in trouble but she is the one who wont get a divorce from that sick bastard
oh and the point of this entry is to say that in like a month i'm probably gonna be moving back to west hartford...to my dad's house
it really doesnt matter though..,because noone would miss me
and id be visiting on every or every other weekend
but honestly i would be sooo much happier there than here
like i even told my mom today that the only thing that kept me here for a while was money...because my dad is definitely a lot less rich than my mom and its going to be like a really big change even if some people are like well whatever youre spoiled...its still a major change
but my dads gonna redo the whole basement for me so it can be my room!
YAY!
and my mom said she thinks i can...her and gary dont want me in their house...
but yeah atleast i have tuesday to look forward to haha
okay well im gonna do my homework now because as usual i cant fall asleep and its midnite and I REFUSE TO TAKE SLEEPING PILLS :D haha
<3devynnn
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this house is seriously like a prison
but i can escape from it in my room
i think i could actually live in my bed
with some chocolate and music
and everyone could visit me in my bed
we could all live in my bed
and it could probably fit a lot of people too
and sarahs coming home today...so Im gonna try to go to the commons tonite to see her
<3devynnn
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1. Take your LJ username and replace each letter with the corresponding number (A=1, B=2, etc...)
P-16
I-9
G-7
L-12
E-5
T-20
8-8
1-1
4-4
2. Add all of the numbers together to create a kind of super number.
82
3. Add the digits of the number together.
10
4. Find the post of this number in your LJ. If you don't have that many posts, add the digits together again.
5. Take the digit you noted in step 3, and count that many words into the post.
already
6. Use the resulting word in a Google Image Search, and select the first picture from the very first page and post the results for all of us to see!
uhh wow umm okay...
i hate this house at night...no its just i hate this house.
ill seriously do anything, but i want out, and i want it bad.
i cant fall asleep and its two in the morning so im gonna go lay down or something before my parents murder me...
<3devynnn
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| Begging for a razor's kiss.... |
[12 Feb 2005|12:06am] |
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I hate it....
It's like I can get the guys I don't really want, but I can never really get the guy I want.
WHY!!??
i hate it so much
and yes....i do like someone besides that asshole named jarod(ive been over him since like the dance...somethings not appealing about a jackass turned suckupish person)
and i should like someone else...i dont care if jarod said he liked me and i finally told him i liked him hes a jackass and he deserves this and he can think whatever he wants
oh and for everyone who thinks im a slut for the dan thing...fuck you...i dont like dan at all...im starting to hate him
i cant control who i like or dislike, its just i dont know...
Sarah Glass- thank the hell out of me...i can go to the commons tomorrow, because i decided to skip my stepcousins bat mitzvah and not go over my dads for you!
haha i cant wait to see you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah so today my parents locked me out of my house and so i had to go over audreys
and then we went over rachels
and we were supposed to go to the commons and shit but noone could give us a ride back from there so it was just a waste of a day
but atleast i like a new guy right?
oh and i made my lj all pretty ALL BY MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! omg its like so easy all i did was like click a few things and made it all different colors ME LOVES IT!
haha so proud....
here's your new drug
shoot it in the left eye
feel it on the right side
no it's not love
thought it sets up shop
behind your ribcage
building blood clots and black holes
like using an axe to pull
a sliver from your skin
and they say this is medicine
an overdose of oxygen
a severed head
as sedative
to be at peace would be a sin
and surely unAmerican
I’m breaking
here's your new blood
transfusion took us all night
tell us that your all right
no it's not love
though it feels that fire inside your veins
burning black beneath your wrist
begging for a razors kiss
to free it from your skin
and they say this is medicine
an overdose of oxygen
a severed head
as sedative
to be at peace would be a sin
its surely unAmerican
I’m breaking down
lift the veil
let the medicine in
and my heart fails
time and time again | <3devynnn
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yeah so dan really took his whole "inspector" job seriously lol
seeing as he felt me up and like tried to pull down my pants after school lol
but yeah so i stayed after school
and i had a detention in elliott
and then when to the french practice thing for 1fifteen5 minutes for the national french exam thing....no idea why im taking it....
and then me and rachel were hanging around for the rest of the time
and we watched the dance club and theres room for improvement....especially because jehira wasnt dancing because they were all talking about her....very dramatic...lol i didnt catch onto any of it because the whole time i was listening to some random kids ipod
we listened to crazy music
it was like
"because i got high"
"magic stick"
one song called like "give me head" lol
then another song that was like something something"that ass"
and all this other music that i had either never heard or never heard in a REALLY long time
oh and about the whole jess thing...for the record i never even noticed anything happened so it would be kind of pointless to be mad afterwards
so jess....I STILL LOVE YOU!
yeah i was talking to joeyyyy on the phone and then he was like im gonna go make a pizza....and i was like okay(am i really that boring to talk to?) and yeah he said he was gonna call back in like fifteen minutes but grr he never did but yeah JOEY CALL ME LATER!
and yeah my day was pretty cool....except for everyone being like devyn...you shouldnt drink.......whatever drinking makes me happy....i think i dont really know....
but yeah i really wanna see sarah glass when she comes home....but i wont be able too probably because i have to go to my dumbass fathers wifes sisters daughters(stepcousin) bat mitzvah
maybe ill get out of it
if i suck up to my mom....but i dont think thats going to happen
especially because shes like you cant watch tv for three weeks or something i cant really remember
but i slammed my door so many times the thing broke...i dont know i am not sure if my mom noticed
but anyway.......i feel like my moms always threatening me and i know my stepdad wants to beat the shit out of me
yeah and i had the worst phone call ever today
i was calling my dad because me and my mom were fighting(and i was gonna be like come pick me up)
and so my mom picks up the phone when its ringing and says devyn hang up youre not allowed on the phone and im like hell no fuck you and shes like excuse you truck driver garbage mouth and then my dad picks up and im like dad pick me up i cant take this anymore you dont get it living here is making me go crazy and my mom cuts in David, Devyn is not allowed on the phone right now, because she is in timeout for swearing at me. and you know what superdad says? yeah devyn you cant talk to your mom or me like that anymore its horrible(thanks a lot dad for always sticking up for me) and so my dads like yeah ill pick you up tomorrow and my mother says devyn has to go now and my father hangs up on me and im left there on the phone with noone hysterically crying....and who gives a shit? noone....i go outside to the kitchen to get water and my mom says go back to your room garbage mouth and so i said fuck you, slammed my door one last time and it broke...and cry my brains out and fun stuff haha
but yeah i think im gonna do my science essay thing because its 1141 and ive done zero of it....
leave comments of love
<3devynnn
What you found sure upset you,
never saw it coming did you?
It’s easy to be surprised
with both your eyes sewn closed.
Handled with great precision,
another faultless execution,
you’re the subject of this exhibition,
a willing cadaver, a willing cadaver.
Scalped, sutured, made whole again.
These cuts are leaving creases.
Trace the scars, to fit the pieces,
to tell your story, you don’t need to say a word.
So call off the cavalry,
you can’t save a wretch like me.
Clean this with kerosene,
if you can’t leave it be, might as well make it bleed.
Scalped, sutured, made whole again.
Your wires are frayed, can’t fire right,
you look better when out of sight,
you were not made to stand and fight,
there’s something better wrong with you.
Your wires are frayed, can’t fire right,
you look better when out of sight,
you were not made to fire right,
there’s something better wrong with you.
Your pulse is anemic, you’re tired of the fire,
you’re bruising too easily, and falling behind,
and no one is waiting for you,
and no one is waiting for you.
And no one is waiting for you,
and no one is waiting,
and no one is waiting for you,
for you, for you.
So call off the quarantine,
you can't save the rest from me.
Clean this with kerosene,
if you can’t leave it be, might as well make it bleed.
Scalped, sutured, made whole again.
Your wires are frayed, can’t fire right,
you look better when out of sight,
you were not made to stand and fight,
there’s something better wrong with you.
Your wires are frayed, can’t fire right,
you look better when out of sight,
you were not made to stand and fight,
there’s something better wrong with you.
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uhh a lot has happened since i last updated
me and collin ran outside after school at the basketball game because salva wouldnt let us leave so yeah then salva and the principal came chasing after us and uhh i was still running but collin stopped so i was like whyd you stop? and he was like they already saw us so i just stopped and then they called our parents and made us sit down and talk to them and everything JODY said i would be like okay and he would be like what does okay mean? and id be like i dont know and hed be like i need more than that and id be like OKAY and that was like our whole conversation
and apparentally jody and my mother had a talk about me
and my mom told him how "ive been having trouble at home too"
stupid bitch
but yeah so apparentally jody was gonna give me like three ISS's but i got away with an office lunch detention being how hott i am haha
oh by the way mr.JODY goeller is the ams principal lol i just find it really funny how his name is jody and he still thinks hes as masculine as ms.salva and can go around yelling at people
and now i am randomly IMing some guy who thought i was some other girl pretending to be 22....catching onto any of this? didnt think so..
haha dan was like tomorrow i get to be your bra and thong inspector lol i was like okay dan whatever you want but then he was like yeah i want to know what every part of your body feels like and i was like whoa lol dan can feel me all he wants haha
damn im bored and pissed that sarah puzzo cant come over my house at the moment(for three months...my moms a whore) and so i now have noone to get drunk with on friday nights and as the rest of the school thinks...noone to have LESBIAN SEX with haha me and sarah get down and dirty on friday nights....no im sorry we really dont like honestly as far as i remember we just gave eachother hickies and we were bored and drunk so it really doesnt count
OMG I MISS SARAH GLASS SO MUCH! and i tried to comment in her journal but it wouldnt let me it was like this is a read only and yeah but i do miss her and her dream was interesting, but lets hope i never turn into a bird or whatever
damn it how could my twin leave me alone in the freezing cold to go to some warm place...bitch!
im gonna go to bed because its like 11 and i gotta get some sleep before i like die
Get up, get up
Come on, come on, let's go,
There’s just a few things
I think that you should know
Those words at best
were worse than teenage poetry
Fragment ideas,
and too many pronouns,
Stop it, come on
You’re not making sense now
You can't make them want you
They're all just laughing
Literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
Kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
Well that's what girls' dreams are made of
And that's all you need to know (that’s all you need to know)
You have it or you don't (you have it or you)
You have it or you (don't)
You have it or you
You see how much time you're wastin?
You're coward of seperatin
Stop it, come on
you know I can’t help it
I got the mic
and you got the mosh pit
What will it take
to make you admit that you were wrong?
Was his demise so carefully constructed?
Well let's just say I got what I wanted
Cause in the end it’s always the same (you're still gone)
Lets go
Literate and stylish (literate and stylish)
Kissable and quiet (kissable and quiet)
Well that's what girls' dreams are made of
And that's all you need to know (that’s all you need to know)
You have it or you don't (you have it or you)
You have it or you (don't) don't
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun.
Remind me not to ever act this way again.
This is you trying hard to
make sure that you're seen
With a girl on your arm
and your heart on your sleeve.
Remind me not to ever think of you again.
This is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun.
Remind me not to ever act this way again
Again
This is me with the words
on the tip of my tongue
And my eye on the scope
down the barrel of a gun
I'll never act this way again
Rest the weight (I know somethin that you don't know)
you've had your chance and folded
Don't hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse
Rest the weight (I know somethin that you don't know)
you've had your chance and folded
Don't hold your breath
because you'll only make things worse
(I know somethin that you don't know)
This is me with the worse intentions, don't
(I know somethin that you don't know)
Hold your, hold your breath
Because you'll only make things worse
(I know somethin that you don't know)
Hold your breath
Because you'll only make things worse
Hold your breath
Because you'll only make things worse
(I know somethin that you don't know)
Don't hold your breath because you’ll only make things worse
<3devyn
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